oh i can't bear to think

i cant put it into words
but i will try
after all
coming to this place and uttering that phrase is so so so so
so
so so
so
what was i talkng about?
so
i cant take it i cant
but ouch it hurts the words the feelings. the crossing of the membrane. there is just no word for some things from one language to the next and yet we try
is there virtue in the trying
i think not
not just in the trying itself
so please dont
be a martyr
tis not noble to try
tis sad and failing
is not beautiful
keep
it to
your self.
self
self self